Oh yeah... i def feel like he's a part of me
He reminds me of how i acted when i was 3 and under
I was... happy
I don't want full integration yet but we can communicate fairly well so i don't think they'll see too much of a need for improvement in that regard
But like
Often when i switch back from eishi i get all weird feeling and once i forgot who i was
I have a lot of symptoms of OSDD and scored really high on screening tests for it...
@Kei Wendt - jump
there are other mental health related things that can show similar results, like combination of other dissociative disorders while doing tulpamancy, c-ptsd, bpd or even disorganised attachment style.
If you care about it being something disordered see a professional and they will know how to do differential diagnosis
9:38 AM
if there is nothing about your plurality that disrupts the way you function then it’s not a disorder
9:39 AM
also when it comes to osdd there is more symptoms than just relating to plurality
9:44 AM
Oh yeah... i def feel like he's a part of me He reminds me of how i acted when i was 3 and under I was... happy I don't want full integration yet but we can communicate fairly well so i don't think they'll see too much of a need for improvement in that regard But like Often when i switch back from eishi i get all weird feeling and once i forgot who i was
@Kei Wendt - jump
it sounds to me like you might have met your inner child which can feel quite distinct
There is whole model of Inner Family System Therapy (it introduced terms of inner critic and inner child) which is about seeing parts of yourself as separate than you and have conversations with them and it seems like that’s what you did by accident.
I think a lot of people misdiagnosing themselves with osdd or did are basically doing that without knowing it might be a possibility. it’s especially possible when you already have experience with tulpamancy
i dont think you have to integrate for DD treatment
@berockly (TTG) - jump
did is not just about dissociation but also disruption of spontanous real time integration of all experiences that people usually have
did treatment involves healing of trauma and learning better coping mechanisms than dissociation, with that integration happens spontanously
If you treat did to a point where it doesn’t affect your life, you might still be in the place where you are not fused.
However i believe that if you progress with treatment beyond the point where you just start functioning well and the symptoms don’t affect your life negatively, there is a huge potential for potential growth and going way beyond just functioning.
Dissociated identities mean that there is something that is causing the separation. Final fusion means you worked through all the problems that were keeping those dissociative barriers and you reach a level of self-love, self-acceptance and self-confidence that you can’t achieve when you are still fragmented.
I also believe that it is an opportunity for a person with did to “grow beyond” what usually healthy people are capable of.
Leiko
Oh yeah... i def feel like he's a part of me He reminds me of how i acted when i was 3 and under I was... happy I don't want full integration yet but we can communicate fairly well so i don't think they'll see too much of a need for improvement in that regard But like Often when i switch back from eishi i get all weird feeling and once i forgot who i was
@Kei Wendt - jump
it sounds to me like you might have met your inner child which can feel quite distinct
There is whole model of Inner Family System Therapy (it introduced terms of inner critic and inner child) which is about seeing parts of yourself as separate than you and have conversations with them and it seems like that’s what you did by accident.
I think a lot of people misdiagnosing themselves with osdd or did are basically doing that without knowing it might be a possibility. it’s especially possible when you already have experience with tulpamancy
curious question, has anyone had their tulpa change the "feel" of them fronting/possessing?(edited)
5:34 PM
i progressed very fast with her and had her completely possess for a brief moment on like the 4th day, and she had a very distinct look and different muscles active than i could do consciously myself, but we haven't had that after that day(edited)
5:35 PM
but on the other hand i dont think she has fully possessed after that, i think we've been kinda blending since then when doing stuff, it keeps coming naturally(edited)
5:36 PM
fully possessed, i mean
5:36 PM
i think
5:36 PM
just a moment ago we werent sure who was using the toaster and buttering the bread
5:38 PM
its crazy how fast we have progressed
5:39 PM
her voice is also different from what it was then, but its definitely still her talking
i think it’s fine for things to ho crazy fast. In my opinion people have capacity to develop a tulpa ceery quickly and i did help people some of which struggled for months do fast progress, how i see it is how much of the process is being distracted by intellectual/analysing mind
if you are panicking it doesn’t matter who feels what, in situation like thay it’s good to recognise that this is happening and use grounding techniques
I find a different type of meditation to be more helpful during distress
Where you feel every part of your body and relax, and then witness your thoughts and let them pass by(edited)
yeah its probably not the best, but it's the only one i know by heart
Kei Wendt
I find a different type of meditation to be more helpful during distress
Where you feel every part of your body and relax, and then witness your thoughts and let them pass by (edited)
the best technique for calming down is to sit, put your hand on your stomach and slowly breath with your tummy
6:02 PM
During panic it’s not just the mind but also body that are distressed and that calms down both
6:02 PM
it reduces the feedback loop of things going in spiral and gives you a positive feedback loop
6:03 PM
i had huge problems with panic attacks with heart palpitations to the point i thought i was going to die and i learned this technique from my therapist, i didn’t believe it would work but it did
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